thoughts...

been thinking a lot lately..

this is a really tough semester..there are really tons of things to be done coupled with tuition and music exam..

i realised that for the past few sems, whenever i am very stressed, i tend to flare...to the people closest and nearest to me..i was wrong..and i am deeply remorseful for that..

flaring up at the people closest to me was a big mistake. i caused unhappiness in them...they didnt know what has really happened to me...they just see this mad monster flaring up..i looked ugly..(my bro takes pic of me flare and show me..gosh how ugly i am) i know, i flare for like one minute only then i will forget...but the damage might be irreversible..to the people around me. they are hurt by my attitude...my way of handling things. ok i think i didnt flare but i just treat people in a bad way..whenever they dun live to my expectations because i felt things never lived to my expectations.

i realised that...after a few quarrels and stuffs happened because of me losing control of my mood, losing control is just not the way...when i am sian, all the more i should treat people the usual way so that they are happy. and when they are happy, i will be happy...quarrels start when people lose control of their mood, i believe nobody likes to quarrel.

i wan to be a happier person, so that people around me will be happy. i want to be like jo jo in the show. contented with whatever i have...be a happy person. :-)

i will remember, that when i am very sad or stressed, i will not flare up or say things that hurt people..these unintentional acts only serve to make things worse,..i will just smile and be happy..at most i will just tell them what happened..i wont keep to myself anymore and then scold those people around me without them knowing what has happened..:-)